Church and Worship

I was talking to a friend today, who I am trying to help and encourage. One of the words of advice I gave was about church. I told her that we can't "go to" church. Church is something you bring to wherever you are. And also that worship isn't a music service, worship is obedience. These simple and profound truths have kept me alive and floating. Not that I am in some kind of rebellion against the church or worship music, but I feel a deeper understanding of what those things are. I feel church is everywhere, every day, all of the time. (Tangent thought, if you are expected to act a certain way in church, and church as omnipresent, how do YOU act?) I encouraged my friend that church is right here, right now. Its getting together, encouraging and lifting up one another, fellowship, sharing, engaging. But it definitely brings up another point of what church is not, and why I don't like to go to most conventional churches. Church should not be a one sided conversation. It shouldn't be just one or two people talking to a congregation of people and that's it once a week. Its that model, which to me, is non-relational and is void of the interaction, encouragement, engaging, conversing, and human contact that I crave. That is why I do not go to church much. Ironically, I go when I am playing music in the "worship" service. I do feel true worship when I play at times. But I feel true worship when I am driving to work. Or when I am in a room full of people. Or at home taking care of my daughters. I feel it at any time, because in my church, we are always in church.

Disclaimer AND The Desert IS Alive

Disclaimer: I am a terrible blogger. I realised this at 14 when I tried to keep a diary. My entries were sporadic, maybe one every few months, or even skipping years. Recently in my other blog's, I have had the same issue. I would try to fill in pages of blank non-entries with something, just out of some kind of diary-guilt. I try not to live a life of guilt and guilt driven fear anymore. That is why I cannot promise in this blog any regular type of entries. I know myself well enough to accept who I am and my lack of commitment to writing entries. That being said, I want to share on here my thoughts, and thoughts shared to me by the Spirit, who is the Creator of this world. I am a man of the land. Of the Earth. I have always felt a special connection to it. It is so fitting that I once worked as a Soil Scientist, I know a spiritual connection to the land, and I know the scientific connections and mechanisms. Another love I have is for the desert, in a place so barren and dry, apparently, there is so much life. Life that many do not see. Barren - is a misrepresentation, the desert is more than alive, it is waiting, patiently, while many overlook its beauty, to be discovered and understood, in its simple ways, in nuances that are appreciated at the lowest and highest levels.